Saturday, 29 October 2011

What would my first love be?

Sometimes for just one moment I think 'What would my first love be?'

Girls always wanted to be love and be in love. Thought of being single is okay but it's not okay. You can say that better off being single rather that having someone besides you but one day you will say that having someone to stay and comfort you is much better. And for sure money can't buy happiness. Even you have million or billion money on your accounts, love just come first. Here, the storyline in the movie that I have found it great!

A scripted scene from the movie Millionaire's First Love.

Guy: [rushing towards the doctor. Then, he grabbed his arm to ask..]
"Let her live. Let my Eun-whan live. Please! I'm rich. Try everything. I'll pay. What about a transplant?"
Doctor: "It's too late."
Guy: "Come on, Eun-whan is... she's only 19. I haven't even told her that I like her."
Doctor: "She can't afford to be upset or suprised. And love can kill her. If she gets too happy or excited, her heart could stop."
Guy: "No. No way. That's bullshit!"

(Note: She has hypertrophic cardiomyopathy)

Another scripted scene from the movie Millionaire's First Love.

Guy: [beeeep!] "How much is 0.1%?"
Lawyer: "Isn't this too early to talk?"
Guy: "How much do i get if I give up my inheritance?"
Lawyer: "Are you? A verbal agreement is also........"
Guy: "I know. How much is it?"
Lawyer: "It's a little shy of what costs to buy the orphanage."
Guy: "Leave the orphanage alone. I'll give it up. I won't eat my words. Get the paper work done. That's your specialty."
Lawyer: "Are you sure you won't regret it?"
Guy: "Won't I regret it? I know I will, after this call. Bye."

[He hanged up the phone; then, he sat down.]

Guy (deeply thinking to himself): "I'll regret it for the rest of my life. But this girl is more important than 99.9% of my inheritance that I'm throwing away."

 How sweet right! Giving up his inheritance for the one he loves. A bad and playboy guy turn out to be a first class lover and willing to sacrifice everything for one girl. Phewww. Now, where's my man?

It will be great if my first love story is like one in those love's movies or drama. Hehe. *in my dream*
I always think why Allah SWT create human to be pair up in this world. Why there must be a girl and a boy, a woman and a man? And why they need each other?

Because we are not perfect. We are not create to be perfect. Perfection comes when both are together and helping each other. That is why Allah create us and one more thing, love is part of the togetherness.  What a greatest creation!

I was hoping that one day I have my first love. Auwww. Hihi. But hey, every girl does want their first love is a part that they will always remember and of course I want it too! :))

And I'm not looking for perfection for my future partner. I just need a person who can guide me in the future and help me, comfort me, stay beside me and always love me. Knowing he would do this, I think I am the happiest girl and definitely he will be the one that I always love.

I'll end up hurting him,
Knowing that, I miss him.
I wanna hold his hands.

And be with him.

What makes me happy now will hurt him later.
But I can't help it.

I'll definitely go to hell.

I can't help it but my future lover will always be my lover and that is me. Once I get clinging on a person I love, I will always be their first and last person they will see. And to future him, if one day I end up hurting you, please don't hate me. I'm just a girl and I make mistake. And if you know it hurts for you to be with me, stay with me because I love you. 

p/s I'm so happy. I'm so happy that I think I'm going to hell  #eunwan. 

Thursday, 27 October 2011

Rock n Roll

Sem-break is coming!  Weehooo :))))

but the saddest thing is its only two weeks break and that is not enough. Let me repeat NOT ENOUGH :(
So many things I wanna do - wanna go shopping, hang out with my friends, go having some fun with my family, go jogging so that I can start my diet properly. Omoo, diet? haha. Don't laugh but I'm gonna start my diet right after I finish exams. Serious. And the best part is I already calculated my average daily calorie need and my basal metabolic rate.

My basal metabolic rate is : 1251 calories
My average daily calorie need is : 1501 calories
Number of calories I should eat a day to lose weight is : 250 calories

and JOGGING every morning at Istana Garden. It's a must! I'm gonna drive and burn all cholesterol, fats, carbs that have attack my body. InsyaAllah.

Planning for sem-break ;

1. Jogging - of course.
2. think off to go Singapore - masih dlm perancangan.
3. girls day out with my ibu - harus sangat :)
4. out with best friends - have to because I miss them!
5. out with him - maybe.
6. off to KL - jalan-jalan but don't know who want to follow me. Hopefully my friends wanna join ;)

Thats all. Two weeks please, please, please don't move too fast. I'm counting on you. Thanks.

Tuesday, 25 October 2011

Ticket to Success

Exam is just around the corner. My hands cold, my body trembling and headache keep welcoming and say hi to it just wanna make me stressed and depressed. It just matter of time of which whether 'I can finish up all my revision' or 'tawakal and do try my best'. Phewww, to get good or excellent result is very hard. Need to sacrifice every hour, every minute and every second to study before the war start.


Even though I'm taking only four subjects but frankly, don't look at the amount of how many subjects you take but look at the content of every subject that you take and I willing to say that I wanna go back to my childhood again and learn a b c. No tetrachloromethane, hybridisation, limits, differentiation, chrionic villi, prolactin, mammary glands, testosterone, ovary, barium chloride, gamma rays, ammonia and bla bla bla. The list is going to proceed non-stop and I'm going to 'muntah darah'. 

 and junk food is very very important to me when I'm doing my work.

Kind of things I would do when I cannot study anymore
Internet - of course! 
My savior when I almost sink into tears thinking about my exam.


This is what I do when I give up to do my revision
No books and snored till I feel fresh again..
and revise back what I study..
Again and again and again

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Happy Eid

Oh my blog, how are you? Mann, hectic life is really getting on my nerves. Can't stop it and have to deal with it. Life is so unpredictable right?

Well, Malaysian people, how is your Hari Raya? Is it good? Do you guys have some fun? If you asked me, my raya was not bad but it was not fun enough. The things is that my hols for raya was so sikit! 6 days was not enough! Seriously. 

The thing here is I just want to say hello to my dearer blog because I've not been updated here and there in here. I really miss to write and a lot to tell but time is really freaking jealous with my free time. Pffttt. 

Say HELLO to my new baju raya;

Meet my grandma. She's totally rock my day with variety of food. That's why I love her.
Love you nenek!

Oh, this is my aunt. She's so lovely in real life you know.

Oh yeah, my parents. Here you go ;

And my sisters ; 


Middle of Nowhere

Again today, faith and destiny is unpredictable ain't it? Having funs with friends today and it came out a little late decision because thought we won't see each other. After all, things are not always as we thought and meeting my besties are the best! Totally made my day. So long haven't meet them and there is change here and there physically and mentally and one of my heartless besties is now got a boyfriend! Wahh, break the record already. She's a heartless person and never tried to have a special relationship but end up, she's the one who got a boyfriend first and not me. Sobs.

Talking about faith and destiny, I meet him today. Yeayy me! Haha. So long I didn't see him and he was a bit different. I don't know from what side the changing but he got something something that slightly different. Maybe his physical. Looks and body. Okay, should stop commenting other people. But seriously, I'm glad to meet him. Passed by him while he was still working just wanna said hello but at the same time, he was actually finished his worked already. Alolo, how lucky am I right? Like I said, faith and destiny is unpredictable. I'm so shy to meet him because its kinda awkward you know, talking to the person that you've dated before and haven't meet for a long time then meet again. You know that feeling. Telling myself, endured it zaty, endured it so that we can have a normal chat like we usually did before. And I made it but still we don't talked too much. He mostly talked with my friends and I am happy to see him cheer and having fun with us. I know he tired after one day working but he's still willing to sacrificing his time just to be with us. He's so kind and considerable person ever! Penat pun still manage to take his precious time for us. How sweet. Ngehehe.

Just so you know, he's willing to accompanied us to Jalan Dobi. It was 8.15pm and we walked and talked and ignored all the hectic surrounding because of the bazaar and deepavali things all the way along the road. I bought a blouse at one of the vintage house and I took my time to glared at him. He was seated tiring but still managed to smile. That's him. Even though he was about like a dead battery but he still can recharged. Likely him.

Lucky me! Thats are what my friends said.

I'm merely looking for a good guy and he came out of nowhere and gave me this kind of feelings and I just stood there without making any responds. Well, thats ME.

Thanks for people who made my day today. May Allah bless you guys. Love you to bits!

Good night :)