Friday, 20 May 2011


Time is moving so fast. All the moment - sweet moment, happy moment, sad moment I'll keep it in my mind. My friends are getting away now. Saturday (tomorrow!), they'll be gone and I'm so sad (when I writing this, I wanna cry). I'm gonna miss them so much! They are my best friends, my sisters and my family. Writing this while hearing the song - Hero by Enrique Iglesias make me wanna be a hero to all my best friends. I want to kiss all their pain, I want to stand besides them forever, I want to be their hero! Friends; Ayu, Fiqa, Zana, Asiah, Athirah, Syaza, Syeera, Fazlin - Would you guys swear that you'll be my best friends forever?

Sometimes I am happy for just one moment. In that one moment I don't think about my problems, I think all the options I have. I think about all the awesome people I meet (my friends), I think about all the great ideas I get, I think about all the adventures, about love, about all the places that I discover with my friends. For that one moment, I am happy to be with them. I have hope that we will meet someday. Wish you guys a happy life and don't ever forget me.

Sorry if I have done something wrong to all of you. Sorry if I being like a jerk before. Sorry if I use bad words to you guys. Sorry if I broke my promises before. Sorry if I stabbed you guys from back and last but not least, sorry I didn't mean to make you guys cry. I'M SO VERY SORRY! Please forgive me. I'm not a perfect person.

Ya Allah, please grant my friends strength, health and happiness.
Please make me a light in their life, 
Make me a source of laughter and smile, 
Just as they have been for me,
Guide them to the straight path, and keep them away from worries and grief.


p/s Please don't forget me. Your friend; Ezzaty Suhaimi. 

Wednesday, 18 May 2011


I'm not close with my dad. I always prefer my mom then my dad in everything. I always think that my dad is too harsh on me until at one point I think my dad does not love me anymore. I keep thinking bad when he mad at me and sometimes I loss in thought, 'Why I have this kind of dad?'. When I saw my friends hugged their dad, I feel jealous! My dad is not like their dad.

That is the old story. Don't want to talk anymore. I feel bad when I thinking of it and sob sob :"(

I realize now, dad is my everything. There are many aspects that I don't take and see - how my dad show his loves towards me. I can kill my time to flashback everything that my dad had did for me and now I've realize, he did his very best job to be a good father. Swear to God, I love my daddy so much and I'm so sorry because I always think bad of you.

My dad did a lot of things for our family. He unwaveringly leads, provides for and protects our family. He loves my mom and so do Allah. He works hard on the job and he never gives up on me when I was probably worth giving on. He simply gives strong advice to do what's right. He exercises and eat well. He's not obsessed with making a lot of money, and he knows the importance of living practically. He knows that he is far from perfect and freely admits it. He makes me want to find my future husband exactly like him. I think I'll go crazy if he's gone. MasyaAllah!

So, if you guys have this kind of hatred feelings for your dad, better knock it off! You better refresh back all the things that your dad had did for you from the first you born till now. Then, you will realize, the sacrifices that he had made for you. Tak tahu nak balas budi ayah macam mana. *sigh

Ayah, I really love you! Even if you never showed your love towards me but I know deep down in your heart, you'll always love me as your daughter. I'm so lucky to have you as my dad. May Allah bless you, Ayah for all of your sacrifices. I just want to say - THANK YOU because of you I'm born in this world.

Dad, I may love a lot of man in the future. 
Someday I'll get married to someone out there, but in the end let me remind you that no matter what happen, you'll always be the best guy for me, I love you till forever ends.

p/s I love you, Ayah!

Sunday, 15 May 2011

Dream Car

Damn, I want this car so badly! Daddy, please...


I love this car! So cheeky, stylish, modern especially for a girl like me. Gosh, hopefully I'll get this car before my age turn 25. InsyaAllah. Amin. Pray for me.

p/s Audi A1 is like Mini Cooper, but this audi is so much nicer than cooper.

Four Girls

Nadia Amira Othman! Oh man, I really miss this girl so much. She's so busy and thank God, we finally meet.

Breakfast: McDonald

Lunch: Old Town

Homey :))

Ini Hariz, adik Nadia. He's adorable! Oh god my gedik face :( 

Last but not least, My Beauty Angel. <3<3<3
Nadia Amira Othman

They really made my day! Four girls; Me, Emy, Nadia and Ajyjah. Thanks guys! I love them because they are my family. Hopefully we can go out together again like this. 

p/s Jealous Nadia drive kereta! 

Saturday, 14 May 2011


How can you tell if a guy likes you? One question that keeps on lingering in my mind;


One thing that I don't like about love story is it is so 'COMPLICATED'. I've read many love story books and most of the books I've read indicate complicated love story. The loving thing is actually easy, but people make it harder and it stressed me out why thing that is simple as that, can become so complicated and in the end, it will hurt you so bad. I don't have any love experience, but I might have it one day and one thing for sure, love is confusing to me. Damn, why is it so hard?

He likes me. He do really likes me and I didn't know about that. His feeling towards me, the way he look at me, the way he reacted when he saw me and sadly, I don't know about it. If my friends didn't tell me, I swear to God, I didn't know anything. Why keep it as a secret? Won't you be hurt?

Love is complicated but guys are more complicated!

Confess to people that we like and love may take some time. I know. Impossible for you to approach to the girl you like and tell her that you like her. Most boy/men are afraid someone that he loves may reject them. I understand. But please be BRAVE for once and put aside your EGO just for a moment. It work beautifully if both side don't play hide and seek especially related to feelings.

Life is karma. What goes around comes around and so did love. I always remind myself not to play other people's feelings because one day it might happen to me. Love is hard but I have to face it.

But one thing for sure, love cannot be force. It takes two tango in a relationship. If the girl does not respond, then you need to back off. Face the fact and reality. Everyone wants happiness. No one wants pain, but you can't make a rainbow without a little rain right? Life must go on.

When people you love walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to someone who leaves you and it doesn't mean they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over.

p/s I'm grateful because I know there is a guy who likes me. InsyaAllah, if we are meant to be together, I think I'm the luckiest person ever because you are one in a million.

Tuesday, 10 May 2011

Triple A

Ayu, Afiqah, Asiah. Triple A a.k.a best friend! 

When it comes to hanging out with friends, one can be sure that it is going to be absolutely amusing with unlimited fun. The talks seem to go on forever and any silly topic can become a point of lengthy discussion. When I talk with my friends, I don't know why, but I feel so happy and hyperactive until at one point, I think I'm a talkative person ever. I'm a shy person but hanging out with my friends, I'm the queen of talking. In fact a KING! So maybe that's why we had our brunch (breakfast cum lunch) at Sushi King, City Square. Haha.




We watched FastFive movie. Greatest movie ever for this month. No joke. Who haven't watch it, you should watch it RIGHT NOW! 

After movie, gosh my stomach need food! Sizzling Stonegrill.

It's a real blast! 

Maybe this is my last outing with friends because after a few weeks, all of us will be busy with our future. It sadden me because time is moving so fast till I don't realize that we are now 18 years old and we're going to have our future separately without friend's help, not sitting besides me, comforting me if I'm sad, make me smile everyday with jokes and funny things, sharing food, give me inspiring words. My God, I swear I'll miss these moments. At school especially. Things will never happen twice in life and being a teenager in school surrounding with many friends are the best day, best moment, best every second in my life. Who want to forget it?

To you my dearer friends; Ayu, Asiah, Afiqah, Zana, Syaza, Athirah, Syeera and Fazlin. Sumpah korang kawan dunia akhirat aku! I will miss you guys. InsyaAllah, one day all of us will meet again. REMINDER! Kalau nak kahwin, tolong jemput aku! Pas pas kan lah kad jemputan tu ya. Terima Kasih.

p/s Wondering who will get married first? Hurmm...


Kolej Matrikulasi Johor (KMJ) a.k.a Matriks or UITM Alor Gajah? These things are getting me crazy because basically, I don't know which path can lead me to bright future. I keep thinking, is it Matriks good or should i choose UITM?

After did some research and review from the people who is used to be one of the students in KMJ and UITM, finally I choose Matriks. It took me two weeks thinking about the choices. It's driving me crazy!

My knowledge about Matriks is zero even though my brother is an ex-student in Matriks. Just so you know, my brother did help me but not much. Such a lovely brother! Erkk. He did help me by saying this;

"Awak ambil matriks je. Setahun, then belajar betul-betul. Kawan abang dulu dekat MRSM dapat result SPM yang okay okay then masuk Matriks jadi top student. Dekat Matriks belajar betul-betul. Jangan belajar main-main,"

Inspiring words brother! And then I asked him;

"Abang, how did you become clever? How did you score in Matriks?"

His results is good btw. So freaking jealous. I just curious how did he study and maybe he can give me some tips on how to be an excellent student. But then...

"Abang kuat sembahyang. Kan muka orang beriman ni," and I was like.. erkkk. OH MY GOD!

Thank you brother! Really help me.

Whatever it is, my brother is right. Apart from studies, we also have to remind ourselves not to forget to pray and du'a because both of it is the world's greatest wireless communication.

Allah SWT says: "Take one step towards me, I will take ten steps towards you. Walk towards me, I will run towards you." Hadith Qudsi

Subhanallah! I love this reminder. I will always keep this in my mind.

Back to Matriks, people said that study in Matriks is hard. They said focus on your study or you'll be kick! Okay, that's scary.

And as far as I know, by entering Matriculation, our future is set here in Malaysia. We will enter a University albeit local. We may not enter the university of our choice but this is all up to student. Score 4 pointer and who would refuse us?

My parents prefer me to take Matriculation than Diploma. They said;

"Matriks is not hard. It just a matter of you WANT to study or NOT. If your 'niat' is want to study then everything will be easy. Ignore what people said and follow your instincts. We will support you from behind. It's your decision. Your own future."

Lastly, I choose Matriculation. It just one year studies and I need to struggle and focus on my study. No more kids playing, no more love story, no more dreaming. Face the reality! It's my future!

And the good news is my best friend, Norhidayu Jamal, she chose Matriks too and we got same place. OH MY GOD! I know. Haha. I'm so thankful to Allah because He still gives me a chance to study together with her. I think we are meant to be best friend forever. Allah wants me to stay besides Ayu or Ayu stays besides me, so that we can help each other in our studies, our problems and etc. So, Ayu lets get rock and roll in Matriks!

So, I really need to believe in myself that I can do it. Pray and du'a. Here's the says that has touches my heart;

I feel someone stands beside me, but no one is there,
Someone is holding me, but nobody fits my hand,
Someone is wiping my tears, but no one touches my face,
Someone is calling my name, but I don't see anyone,
I shouted "Who are you?".Then I saw a leaf falling.
I've realized, I'm looking around,
Yet, not looking above.
(Allah SWT)

Allah SWT  always has 3 replies to our prayers; 
1. Yes
2. Yes, but not now
3. I have a better plan for you

There's never a NO. 

I think Allah have a better plan for me. That's why He wants me to choose Matriks instead Diploma in UITM. I believe in Him. I'll take everything that He has wrote for me. I just want to say, THANK YOU ALLAH! May fate fares me well. Amin.

p/s Ayu, I really need you to help me in my study no matter what! Thanks.

Thursday, 5 May 2011


Kuala Terengganu maliii. Travel in Malaysia is superbly enjoying. Me, as a Malaysian never want to travel in my own country because I thought overseas is so much better, but then I realize my country is so much *triple much* better. I really love our natural environment. So fresh! 

Check in hotel first. The hotel is just near the beach! Yahooo!

First day in Terengganu, we went to Pasar Payang. This is maybe the largest and popular market and they sell lots of kain for baju kurung especially songket and batik. I was so eager! I want to find my baju kurung for the next Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Which one mummy? I'm confused!

After that, we went to Masjid Kristal. Beautiful mosque. 

Then, Muzium Negeri. Soooo big! I love the museum design. 

and.. the beach. My favourite part!

After three day,we need to go back to Johor Bahru. Sob sob sob :(

and not to forget, before I went back to my hometown, my dad stopped at Hai Peng Kopitiam. Best cappuccino I had ever taste. You guys should try it and the toast bread too. Delicious. Yum yum. 

Coffee packet for sale. I saw many people bought it.

If you guys can see the man with a green t-shirt, OH MY GOD! He is so handsome. Hee

My vacation end there. 

To know Malaysia is to love Malaysia. I love the people, I love the food, I love the feeling, I love the peace, and I love the environment. Malaysia totally rocks!!!

Do come to Malaysia because you will find out many interesting things over here. I promise you, you will never regret.

Foreigner, welcome to Malaysia!